Buds

Ella loves to do exactly what Lilly's doing. She loves to have exactly what Lilly has. And she loves to make the same noises Lilly makes. It's really cute.

When Lilly was sick recently, she propped herself up on some pillows to watch TV. Ella took her own pillow and plopped it right next to Lilly and got under the same blanket. Lilly had her lovey so Ella got her pinky. Together they sat and watched TV hand-in-hand. It was adorable.

Tomorrow morning is Ella's surgery to place tubes in her ears. I am keeping it together but could fall apart at any minute thinking of her going under anesthesia. She is battling a stomach virus involving diarrhea and I think she has a double ear infection as well. I am a nervous wreck about the entire process from getting there by 6:30 a.m. when Ella's naturally a late waker, to the anesthesia while she's already ill, to the recovery and reaction to the anesthesia. But I'm staying positive and thinking how much she needs this surgery.

I will be taking Ella at 6:30 a.m. and Andy will be getting Lilly up and dressed for school and dropping her with a friend at 7 a.m. Then he will meet me at the surgery center and our friends will drop Lilly at another friend's house at 8 a.m. and the second friend will take her to school. That is stressing me out also. I am very rigid when it comes to our routines and schedule but I know that Ella needs us and Lilly will be fine.

When I told Lilly what was going on tomorrow she started sobbing and clutching her own ears. She said she didn't want Ella to be hurt and she wanted to see and be with Ella. It killed me. I told her Ella would be fine (God I hope this is the truth) and it would make Ella's ears better. Lilly really has a soft and tender heart and her raw emotion in response to Ella's surgery was so touching.

If you're reading this and you want to lift a prayer up for Ella and the doctors and anesthesiologist I would be elated. I am not nervous about the procedure itself but am fearful of the anesthesia as Ella's pretty sick going into the surgery.
Thanks, and I'll update tomorrow.