Thursday

Today we stayed home, indoors, and in our pajamas! I feel like I'm coming down with something similar to what Lilly's battling (which I'm prone to of course). I am having trouble breathing and am coughing. Tonight I had body aches and a killer headache.

Ella is much better. She only threw up one time today and I had trouble deciding if it was even from the virus or just a regular spit-up. It was somewhere in between. And Lilly was herself today!! We took her off Albuterol and swapped it with Xopenex which is less likely to cause insane hyperactivity. It is also supposed to make her feel less jittery. I can completely tell a difference. Her cough is a tad better and she'll be rechecked tomorrow.

Tonight I'm a nervous wreck!! I put Ella to bed in her own room and in her big girl crib! I also did not swaddle her. Talk about change... and I'm not one that takes easily to change so this is killing me! I had to do it because last night I had to cough all night. I would bury my face in a pillow with another pillow on top just to cough. And it still would wake Ella up each time so I ended up getting up and going into the bathroom and burying my face in a towel. So I figure she's better off sleeping away from me tonight. If it works out I'll leave her in there. I hope I can sleep - I have the video camera (to my monitor) right in front of her face! I can even hear her breathing over the monitor. I am struggling with guilt because I didn't move Lilly into her own room until she was almost 6 months. But Ella went down just fine. We'll see how long she sleeps. She is not swaddled because the last two nights she spent from 3a.m. to 6 a.m. working on breaking out of the swaddle. I heard constant struggling, grunting, etc. and then I would look and she'd have her hand up near her neck but still trapped in the swaddle. It was like she was on a mission. She was asleep (sort of) but still working to get that arm out. So tonight she's in a sleep sack - a fleece sack that has sleeves and then just a sack for her feet. It zips up and seems very very cozy. But "they" say newborns sleep best swaddled since they have so many involuntary jerky muscle movements that wake them... Stay tuned...

I'll try to get a picture of Ella in her sleep sack and Lilly in her neon yellow Sponge Bob pajamas (thank you "Meemaw!") in the morning.